I have no idea who took this photo but I just love it.

I can’t even explain why, it just looks eerie and awesome all at once.

I saw it on the internet and just find something about it quite fascinating

It was taken in California.

 

 

My husband and I took our grand daughters Keira and Kayla to the above titled movie.

It was good.
And like I told Keira, this is how I see parts of the world that I will never see in real life.

The places this movie was filmed in were beautiful.

Down right awesome in my opinion.

The movie was good, not wonderful but good.

Pretty predictable but entertaining too.

 

 

 

 

Tomorrow will be my first day of not having grand children Monday through Friday.

My daughter Emily is on maternity leave so I won’t have the kids as much as I did.

I will have them on Tuesday as she has to take Ava to the doctors.

So except for Tuesday I will have the days to myself.

I am looking forward to it and I have a lot of things I want to do.

Sigh.

Hate how fast he days off will go though.

I must and I do mean I MUST….start a diet regime.

I vowed I would start as soon as I didn’t have the kids every day.
So it will be tomorrow morning.

I want to exercise, clean my house, wash my sheets, weed my flower beds…..clean the basement….

And of course there is always odds and ends to do.

I could always scrub walls and or blinds in the garage….there is always something to do.

And of course never enough hours in the day to do them.
Yes I am grateful to have the next three days off.

But …..I will be busy…..

My newest grand daughter is officially 24 hours and 23 minutes old

She is so beautiful and precious

Thank You God for her and for all my children and grandchildren

I am so blessed

 

In less than twenty four hours I will have a new grand daughter.

It will be wonderful to finally meet Miss Ava Marie.

I look forward to holding her and welcoming her into the world.

God willing they will both survive labor and delivery and grow up together.

God willing.

I am so very blessed with my wonderful family and I don’t ever want to take that for granted.

Thank you Lord for all of the wonderful people you have graced me with in this life.

Amen.

My husband is 61 today.

We aren’t doing anything other than dinner with our daughters and four out of the five grandchildren.

I bought him a newer truck for his birthday from me.

Dinner will be from our youngest daughter.

Our eldest rarely if ever gives presents.

Which is alright.

At our age we don’t need anything.

Anyway happy birthday husband

So a coworker friend of mine is battling breast cancer.

She has decided she is going to do chemotherapy for sixteen weeks and then have whatever is left of the cancer taken out.

I worked four hours for her last night so she could go talk to her oncologist about what she is going to do.

She told me she will do the chemotherapy.

I came home and talked to my husband about it and he asked me “What would you do, if that was you?”
I said “Honestly I don’t think I would do anything.”
And my reason for this is…….I work with another woman who had breast cancer thirty years ago.
She had the entire breast removed after doing the chemotherapy.

She told me if she ever had cancer again she would not do the chemotherapy because in her words, you are filling your entire body with this poison.

Yes it may kill the cancer but you are still filling your body with an evil poison.

And she said she wouldn’t do it again.
I suggested to Laurie the friend with breast cancer that she talk to Jackie, the nurse who had breast cancer thirty years ago.

I don’t know if she did or not because I left work and she was there till ten.

I hope she did but maybe she doesn’t want anyone’s influence and just wants to deal with it herself.

I can’t honestly say what I would do.

I really don’t know.

I feel like I have lived a good life and I am ready to go to Heaven whenever the Good Lord wants me there.

However ….since I am getting a new grand daughter here in a few days I would like to see her grow to adulthood.

So I honestly can not say what I would do.

I doubt very much if I would do chemotherapy.

I have been told that there are oils from marijuana that are good for fighting cancer.

Not sure if that is true or not but I would go that route, or do radiation.

But again if I was faced with this like my friend Laurie is…..I honestly don’t know what I would do…..

 

 

 

So Aaron and Bailey came today and both wanted breakfast pizza, so we went to Casey’s to get some.

Almost six dollars later they are eaten and now we are watching Captain Underpants.

Like SpongeBob Square Pants I find this show to be really dumb

The two of them enjoy it and I let them watch what they want on TV.

It keeps them happy and usually from being bored.

 

Two days and counting down till we get to meet Miss Ava Marie.

I am anxious to meet her and God willing she and Emily will be fine.
I always worry as many many years ago, probably close to forty or fifty I had a cousin who gave birth and a blood clot went to her heart and killed her.

I always am afraid that it will happen to one of my kids.

I know, I worry…..

But God willing all will be well.

Then after Emily has Ava my husband will bring Aaron and Bailey up to meet her and then we will all go back to their place where I will stay over night there with the kids and their two dogs.

Not sure if Emily will come home on Friday or Saturday but if it isn’t till Saturday I will stay over again Friday night.

I do have to be at work on Saturday at six so……Rick, my husband will have to come back over and spend the day with them until Emily, Adam and Ava come home.

Emily is off for seven weeks so hopefully she will get caught up on sleeping and spending time with her kids before she has to go back to work on September 17th.

In the mean time, we wait…..

Well here we are sitting on a Monday again.

I am counting down the days until my new grand daughter is born.

She will be here some time on July 26th if not before.

My daughter said she was having contractions earlier this morning that lasted about forty seconds, but they went away again…….so little Miss Ava is getting ready…..

I am anxious to meet her.

🙂

Once upon a time I was deeply and irrevocably in love with a man who made me feel like a queen.

I felt cherished and adored and so loved

Unfortunately it didn’t last and he broke my heart

The common sense part of me knows we had a good run and a fantastic relationship and it just ran it’s course

I may not be the smartest woman in the world but I do feel like I have a pretty good head on my shoulders

I survived and think I am a better person for the relationship

He is in the past and that is where he will stay

However, once in a blue moon, about two or three times a year I see him

And I won’t lie, it breaks my heart

I loved him very much and honestly I imagine I always will

Well I saw him yesterday, and as always it is painful

I know it is pathetic and sad of me to still mourn him, but I do mourn him for a few days after I see him

He ended our relationship, and maybe if I had ended it, I may not feel so alone and lonely every time I see him and a few days after

It is all so pathetic of me….

I wish I could change how I feel.   I have prayed and prayed over it

I have a good life with a beautiful family and a few friends……so I know I can continue on and live a good life without him, because I do it year after year.

Why then does my heart break all over again when I see him?