Category: heartfelt

I Need A Challenge~

I feel like I am in a rut.

Like every day is the same as the day before and will be the same tomorrow.

I need something new.

I need to be challenged in some way.

I don’t know how to explain it.

I just feel like there is nothing to look forward to and or anything to make life exciting.

Maybe I am in a funk again.

I don’t know.

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Whose Hand?

So yesterday after having a down day I was finishing up my night by reading random posts that other people have written.

People that I don’t know and will never meet.

As I was reading I came upon a blog that was talking about what would happen if you knew the end of the world was coming.
Whose hand would you want to be holding if you saw a wall of water flying at you?

IF the ground was opening up and swallowing everything and every one, whose hand would you want to be holding.
If it was just one person?
Obviously I would want to be hugging my kids and grandkids, I would want to be with them all if the end of the world was upon us.

Chances are they would want to be with their spouses and children.

My grandchildren would want to be with their parents.

I would want to be near my siblings if the end was coming.

But they would want to be with their children and grandchildren.

But if I had to choose only one person.

Only one, that person would be the man I am married to.

As soon as I read that question, “Whose hand would you want to be holding if you could only hold one hand?”

I instantly said “Rick”

Yes he drives me insane and sometimes I don’t even feel like I like him.

But if push came to shove and there was only one person on this earth that I could hold hands with when the end came.

It would be my husband.

And that pretty much says it all doesn’t it?


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The Ugliness Of Cancer~

My friend Laurie has gone through sixteen weeks of chemotherapy.

Now this next week she is going to have surgery to have what is left of the cancer in her breast removed and possibly some lymph nodes as well.

I feel badly for her but she has been such a trooper and I applaud her for being as strong as she has been

And working despite being ill.

I do hope they can get all of the cancer and she can be cancer free soon.

I learned yesterday that I guy I know that lives in our little town has pancreatic cancer.
He is 55.

I don’t know him well, but he is a firefighter in our town (they volunteer) and his sons played baseball with my sons when they were little.

I feel badly for him because they can not cure pancreatic cancer.

(Not that I am aware of)

My sister Cyndi died from liver cancer.

And it was completely through out her body before she died over two years ago.

It was horrific watching her die.

My mother died from cancer 26 years ago.

And it was horrible watching her die as well.

Cancer is so ugly, so devastating……

So horrible…..

I ache for anyone who has to go through it, or like this man here in my town.

It is pretty  much a death sentence.

So sad.

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Color me pretty…..

Color me blue…….

Color me happy…….

Color me missing you……

Color me crying……

Color me smiling……

Color me grateful for the time……(in)

Color me blessed…..

Color me sappy……

Color me pretending to be happy……

I’d like to say I am over it.

I’d like to say it never enters my mind……

I’d like to pretend I am wonderful……..

Lord knows I would be lying…..

It’s been years……

And I still miss you…..

So color me blue…..

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So I was thinking today how much I miss the ocean, the sun and warmer temperatures.

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No I don’t want it hotter than 80 and no I don’t want any kind of humidity, but I was thinking that once my Ava Marie has grown up, I can see myself spending winters in Florida.

I don’t know if it is because I don’t know when I am going to get to go back, OR if I am just not thrilled with cold weather any longer.

I love winter, I do, but I am not crazy about cold, dreary days for months on end.

I miss the Florida sun.

I miss the ocean.

I literally can see myself going to spend winters in Florida after my four month old grand daughter becomes an adult.


My husband says “if it’s affordable” and I think “I would make it affordable”






Why does time off of work go by so quickly?
I will never understand it.

I had my grandchildren today, watching them during the week as I always do and the day just flew by.

Now it is four thirty and almost dinner time.

Where did the day go to?
I just don’t get it.

Time flies when I don’t want it to and when it doesn’t I am usually at work and not wanting to be there, and the time crawls.

I know I am not alone in this.

I know other people think the same way.

The idea that time flies when you are having fun is so true.

Hate it.

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I’m sick~

I have the good old crud.

I have a very sore throat and am freezing cold.

I feel really off too.

Like my balance is off or something.

Unfortunately I have a twelve hour day to work tomorrow too.

IF I keep Advil in me, I can almost tolerate it.

My sister and her family have had it going on three weeks.

God please don’t let that happen to me.



I plan on being in bed in the next hour or so, even though it is only six fifteen.

I just want to be warm and sleep




I have been at work all day and am now home.

We got at least ten inches out there with the snow coming down very lightly now.

I love the beauty of it.

The snow hugging the trees and bushes.

I love Christmas though and snow of course must come with Christmas.





As I Get Older~

As I get older I find myself yearning for the beach and ocean.

I ache for the warmth of the sun~


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Thanksgiving 2018

Well we had our Thanksgiving with our children and their families last night.

Everyone was here by six thirty and they were all gone by eight thirty.

We had Turkey with dressing, Ham, mashed potatoes and gravy, home made cranberry sauce from our eldest daughter Paula, scalloped corn, green bean casserole, rolls and pumpkin pie, and or chocolate cream pie (for my grandson as he doesn’t like pumpkin pie)

It was a bit insane eating all of that so late at night but it is the only time that worked for all of my kids.

They will go to their spouses Thanksgiving dinners on Thursday and I will be at work from 6 till two that day.

So this was our only time to have our Thanksgiving.

I suggested we just not have it at all this year but the kids vetoed that.


So anyway that is done for another year.

I didn’t take any pictures because my kids tend to object to it so I will wait and do that on Christmas Eve.

Any hoo….we have tons and I do mean tons of left overs.

And anyone who knows me knows I am not a bit left over person.

I will eat some, but definitely not days and days of it.


On another note I am staying at my youngest daughters house while her family of five go to Minnesota to spend with her in-laws.

To house sit and watch her dogs.

I do have to work on Thursday as I mentioned and Saturday and Sunday 6 am till 6 pm, but when I am not working I will be dog sitting.

Which will mainly be at night tonight, tomorrow night, all day Friday and we shall see about Saturday night.

Emily seems to think they will be home on Saturday.


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