is it possible to be beyond exhausted?

if so I have reached it.

I am so very tired.

Tired of this house mess, tired of waiting, tired of working, tired of humidity

I am just plain and simply bone tired.

not sure I have ever felt this tired before.

ugh

I would love to be sitting in a lounge chair looking at this view right now

and while I am supposed to be going on vacation in 3 weeks and three days the way this house thing is going, the chances of us actually getting to go are looking slimmer as the days go by.

but one can hope~~~~~~~~~~~

as long as they aren’t too tired.

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Adam finally asked my daughter Emily to marry him.
They share two children.

Aaron is five and Bailey is 9 months.

I imagine there will be a wedding next year some time.

🙂

we got moved.

or I should say we are 99% moved

I have to go back and clean the apartment and my husband has to get the washer and dryer out of the basement and his work bench.

Our house is a disaster.

Boxes and stuff everywhere
I will love it though once it is all as it should be.

It will be grand to own our own place and to work in my own yard and not have close neighbors where we can hear every move they make and or listen to them through our open windows.

the apartment was nice and I could have lived there forever if not for the neighbors and no yard.

I am forever grateful to our sons Brian and Matt for helping us move and Adam too, our hopefully soon to be son-in-law.

without their help we would still be plugging away at it.

sigh

I feel quite old today

(no reason for the picture other than it is pretty)

No one writes blogs anymore.

It is odd to me and I know I have touched on this subject before.

People use to write daily, or at least weekly, now everyone I read doesn’t write a blog.

my sister Kathy is the only exception and even she doesn’t write daily.

I love to write a blog.
granted I too have gone days and possibly weeks without writing, but it is an outlet for me.

It releases the brains thought process.

and while my blogs may be boring and hardly anyone ever reads them…..I do it for me, not for anyone else.

I do however wish the people I use to read, would start blogging for ME so that I can know what is going on in their worlds.

🙂

I would so love to tune out the world right now

Just spend my three-day weekend working on getting the new house livable and getting all of our things out of the apartment.

Yes I know it will all fall into place.

Yes I know a week from now I will be living in the house and the apartment will be history.

I know all of these things but I don’t want to do anything other than work on all of it to make it happen and sooner rather than later.

I am not a patient person.
When something needs done I want to get to it and get it done NOW!
I am not a  procrastinator  I don’t believe in it and I don’t do it.

I detest having things hanging over my head in a sense like a black cloud following me around reminding me that this needs tended to.

I want it done, out-of-the-way, no longer a requirement for me to do.

I want it over with and done.

Do I sound spoiled and use to getting my way?

That is not my intention.
I just do not function well knowing I have a project that won’t get finished unless I take the time to do it.

this isn’t stress talking, this is the need to get all the ducks in a row as they should be.

this is for Her.
I’m not going to name Her, but she is deep in my heart and I hope and pray that one day she will realize that the life she has is pretty damn great……….if only she would let it be.

So I have been packing for the last two weeks.
Actually probably longer.

Probably closer to a month, but I slowed way down because I was running out of room to put everything that was packed.

My hubby said to me yesterday “Let’s just start moving.  I’m sick of sitting around waiting so let’s give the $500 and start moving”

So we began.

We took one truck load over to the house.

Now that there is no one living there, we see things that will have to be redone.

A hole in a door, part of a wall that was not finished being tiled, really bad paint jobs…….

Nothing of course that can’t be fixed, however it is a bit discerning to walk in and see these things that we hadn’t seen before.

Still to quote the movie “The War” a  bit of lipstick and rouge will make it all fine.

It is so nice to begin the process.

Yes we don’t actually close for 20 days but since the owner was my cousin’s widow, we know each other and we know that we can trust each other to do the right thing.

So we plan on moving a truck load over every night after work and maybe by the weekend we can get our sons to help with the heavier stuff.

Mainly furniture, washer and dryer, get the refrigerator from my son Matt’s place that we are buying from him and the stove from my daughter Emily’s place that once was ours but we let her have when she bought our house.
She has decided she wants electric instead of gas.
I myself prefer a gas stove.

So we will get that from her, maybe this weekend.

 

There is a lot of cleaning I need to do to the apartment but we do hope to be out of there by June 1st.

Which is 12 days away.

I hate moving but I love the thought of our own home again, our own yard and no close neighbors that we can hear going up and down their steps and or sharing a yard with them.

Life is good.

🙂

 

 

My one and only grandson Aaron is five today.

He is a rambunctious ornery healthy happy boy.

I love him dearly.

happy birthday Aaron.

Did you know that 35 years ago today, Mount  Saint Helen’s erupted?

I have been to the mountain and it is a beautiful place to see.

The pictures of it that devastated the state of Washington all those years ago are still unbelievable today.

this is ash on the ground, not snow

Scientists say that Mt. Saint Helen’s is the most active volcano in the Cascade Mountains.

And that it will likely erupt again.

 this picture was taken before it erupted in 1980

this is after when things started growing back

 and this was after it erupted, days later

it is a pretty mountain and I will one day go back and visit her again.