I’ve been watching FX’S Fargo on Hulu.

The first season was quite good.

The second I just started and am not impressed with yet.

It’s been going on for ten minutes and I find it to be a bit dull.

Hopefully it will pick up as there are two more seasons after this one and then they are playing another on TV now.

It is off the wall a bit and strange too but good non the less.

First season anyway…….

🙂

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Am I living up to my full potential?

Most days I don’t think I am

I coast along and spend way too much time sitting in front of the TV and watch stories of other people living a life

I hate how lazy I have become

I hate how one day rolls into another and nothing changes

I need to be more present in life

Working third shift leaves me in a fog with little to no energy to do much of anything

I need to change that

Im going to be 60 in 7 months

Im not getting any younger

Time to step back into myself

Time to change

i finished Matthew McConaugheys book tonight

It was an easy read and flowed seamlessly

Reading it I kept thinking about my brother and how footloose and fancy free he once was

It was interesting and the man does a lot of thinking and expressing his thoughts

I am here at work with nothing going on

I am almost to the 8 hour mark with 4 more hours to go

Nothing new per say

I do find that I am getting the blues more often

Not sure why

One reason may be that I feel like I am either at work or sleeping

Another reason could be that the weather is cold and dreary

Another could be that I haven’t had sex in 9 years

Take your pick

What ever the reason I get down and blue more than I use to

I used to have one or 2 days a month.

Now it seems like it is 1 or 2 days a week

Not sure why…….

I love the holiday season coming up

But not sure if I am ready for winter

Not that I have a choice

It will come regardless

Maybe it is that I didn’t get a vacation this year

Hell I don’t know

Sigh

There never seems to be enough hours in the days

I so wish I could retire now

I don’t mind work once I get here but I do long for the day when I can retire

And that is still 5 and a half years away

Unless Rick passes before I turn 65

If he does I will quit working completely

I could easily survive without working if I only had myself to care for

Not that I want him to die

Of course I don’t

Hopefully the years will be kind and go quickly

Mirielle will be 23, Keira 19, Kayla 17, Aaron fifteen, Bailey 11 and Ava 7

Sigh

Im not ready for my grandchildren to grow up

Well I am on day nine of ten days I have to be off of work.

I would say having this virus is like having the flu.

Just longer.

Once in a great while I have a feeling that something is sitting on my chest and it sort of hurts to breathe.

But it goes away after a while.

I am going back to work on Saturday night.

Just eight hours which I hope to just say with eight hours.

Wasn’t crazy about the twelve hour shifts.

I think it will be fine.

I never was very sick except for last Saturday when I was aching everywhere and feeling like I could vomit and just felt like I wanted to die.

Every other day was fine.

Glad to be going back to work and going back to living.

Rather sick of being home doing nothing much at all.

Sigh