So I will be working tomorrow night when the clock strikes midnight and it will be January first.

So I thought since I don’t know if I will have computer time tomorrow, that I should begin my New Year’s Resolution list.

 

First and foremost is I need to be less critical of others and more  pleasing to be worthy of God.

2- Losing weight.  ALWAYS a resolution but rarely do I stick to it.  I VOW to do better this time.

3- STOP spending money.     I drive a 2007 Envoy and it has a lot of issues and I miss my new cars.  I miss not having something really nice to drive.   But I want to retire sooner rather then later so I refrain from getting anything better.

4- Be doing things more and spend less time watching TV.

5- Make time/ spend time with those I love

6-  Live each day as it was my last.  One day I won’t have any more tomorrows…   I need to cherish every hour of every day and be thankful for all I have been blessed with.

That is it for now.

I am sure there is more……but nothing is coming to me at the moment.

Hope everyone has a safe and Happy New Year tomorrow night.

About 26 hours from now.

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So I was writing my sister and email earlier telling her of a quirk of mine.

I have a few.

One is having to work two weekends in a row when another girl has had the last two weekends off and is going to get this next one off too.

It really annoys me.

Why should she get three weekends off when I have to work two in a row?
And it isn’t even my normal shift that I have to work.

It is hers.

Really pisses me off.

Or is a quirk……whatever.

Another quirk is and I don’t mean to sound bitchy about it but I detest children or adults, especially adults calling their father’s daddy.

If a child is three or younger okay, but not older than that and certainly not as an adult.

My mother use to refer to her father as “Daddy” and it always made me cringe inside.

Just hate it.

I know, everyone is entitled to call their father’s whatever they want.

It just is nails on a chalkboard to me.

I could go on and on but then I would start griping about people and no one wants to listen to me bitch.

🙂

 

 

Well it has been a couple of days and I am not in a better mood.

Maybe a bit better but not by much.

Sigh.

I don’t know what is wrong with me.

I just am in a slump I guess.

 

I worked last night and work tonight, not thrilled with it but it is money and Lord knows I need money.

I work ten to six both New Year’s Eve and New Year’s Day (nights).

That stinks as well but not like I can change it.

I could of course break my arm or something and that would get me out of work, but alas…..I can’t see myself doing that, so I work.

My husband is going to go back to work tomorrow after having three weeks off.

He needs to work.

He sits here and watches tv and eats every thirty to sixty minutes.

I go and do something and come back and he is eating something new.

I haven’t said anything to him but it is all I can do not to say “Really? Can’t you let something digest before you eat something else?”
But of course I won’t.

It is his body.

I just hate to see him gaining weight and knowing that it isn’t good for him.

 

But alas, I won’t harp on him, or as he says “Bitch” at him.

 

Matt went to talk to his wife and see his daughters today.

It sounds like his wife wants him to move back home.

Not sure if he will as a week apart doesn’t seem to be long enough to decide things, but I know he will do what he thinks is best.

And what is best for his daughters.

 

I myself yearn for a change.

I feel like I do the same thing every single day of my life and I HATE it.

Literally hate it.

The only thing I see to look forward to is spring and nicer weather.

Winter has really gotten me down this year and I can’t even say why.

I usually love winter.
But this year I am sick of the cold and sick of piling on clothes to stay warm.

I am just in a slump.

Hopefully things will get better.

 

in addition to the post I just wrote…..I know this saying is true…..

Wish I was rich, or had endless money.

Whoever said money can’t buy happiness, I think is very wrong.

Sigh

I am having a down day.

Not sure why.

I get this way once or twice a month.

Maybe it is knowing I have to go to work tomorrow.

I work the next four days.

Sigh.

AND I have to work New Year’s Eve ten pm till six am.

It annoys me because I have worked every holiday.

I asked for Christmas Eve off and I had to work that.

So in my opinion I feel like I should get New Year’s Eve off.
But alas….my boss doesn’t see it that way.

Maybe I am down due to a passionate dream I had last night.

I do not have passion in my life.

And no I am not talking just sexually.

I am talking about real passion for something.

Like my job, my hobbies…..my health, SOMETHING!!!!
But I don’t.

I have no passion.

 

I titled this because I sometimes think I have not a thing to whine about.

We all have our health, my children and grandchildren are happy.

I have a decent job.
I have a house, a home…..I basically want for nothing.

And yet I have these down days.

I don’t get it.

Yes it could be hormonal.

I do know that.

But like I wrote to my sister earlier, I just want to runaway for a while and do and be something different.

sigh.

We had some ice and a bit of snow last night during the night, the ice was today and I have to say I am so over winter.
Which is strange for me because I usually love winter.

This year I just want it over with.

See, a bit down…..

 

I have become a big fan of the above titled program

I just admire anyone who can do what they do.

I am amazed at their strength and talents.

Yes a bit envious as well.

I would love to be able to hold my own weight and propel myself from one obstacle to another the way they do.

Yes I can still get into shape.

I am after all only 57 years old, quite young to the people I care for in my job.

No not a babe in arms, but a lot younger than any of them.

I am thirty years younger than the youngest one that I care for.

And so they consider me young.

No I will never become an American Ninja Warrior, but I do admire them and it does inspire me to get into better shape.

 

A lady I have known for the past twenty plus years got fired yesterday from work.

I know she could be crabby and hated change but she worked EVERY weekend and was reliable and rarely if ever called in sick.

And they fired her for being too crabby to the residents.

I feel badly for her.

She is 68 years old and has devoted so much of her life to this job.

Yes she had gotten warnings for being too crabby but dang I just feel bad for her.

What a shock that must have been to her when she was called to be told she was fired.

I do feel badly for her.

Sigh.

So while working third shift I am awake all night long and sleeping a lot of the day away.

it is hard to handle when I wake up at two pm and everyone else has been up for hours.

Yeah I know the joys, or perks of the job.

Ha ha.

It is just hard to get use to one way or the other.

I am off tomorrow morning at six am and then go back to work on Saturday afternoon at two pm.

Not thrilled with the change but as long as we are short handed we have to work when and where we are needed.

Sigh.

Like I said to my sister some day I can retire completely and not have to worry about these crazy hours.

Sigh.

As always we have our Christmas on Christmas eve.

We have done this since I married my husband 42 years ago.

Now our kids will spend Christmas with their in-laws or stay home with their families and celebrate the day.

I have to work tonight so I will sleep most of tomorrow anyway.

Well all morning and then hopefully get a nap in the late afternoon before I have to go to work at ten tomorrow night.

Anyway we spend our Christmas day going to a movie or just hanging out at home binge watching movies.

I got three gift cards.

Two to Red Lobster and one to Texas Roadhouse from our kids.

And some peanuts, chocolates and a candle.

My husband bought me a ring but it won’t be here till a week or so from now.

I got a lot and I am truly blessed.

This is the first time in YEARS I didn’t go all out and spend an ungodly amount of money on my kids and grandkids.

It didn’t seem much like Christmas without spending money.

Sigh.

Maybe next year I can at least do better.

Merry Christmas one and all.

 

So I have been trying to get my husband to get a smart phone for years.
He has a very old flip phone.

My son tonight tried to show him a few things on his phone and explain to him how he could have access to everything, the internet, Facebook, etc…..if he had a smart phone.

I have one I am not using that my son could switch his father’s phone in about ten minutes or less.
But my husband isn’t interested.

It is odd to me that he wants to live with the simpler phone and not be more up to date .

I don’t understand it nor do my kids.

Sigh.