maybe I am depressed.

it seems to hit me more and more, this crabby, hate everything bad mood I can’t seem to swim out of.

the current of negativity that consumes me…..makes me into someone I do not like.

I don’t know

I think a lot of it has to do with money

I should not be struggling week to week with not having any money

BUT we do tend to go out to eat a lot and go to movies.
I told my husband last night we needed to stop going out to eat.

don’t get me wrong, I love going out to eat…..but dropping $25 or $30 bucks every time we go eat, gets costly.

not to mention the damn gas it takes to do it.

I hate going home every night and doing nothing.

I can’t even go outside with the damn bugs eating me alive.
Ugh I so hate bugs!

I literally feel like life is slipping away from me and I am stuck with this anchor around my ankle pulling me down.

maybe it is time to talk to the doctor about depression medicine?
I hate to go that route, but the bad days out weigh the good ones anymore

😦

every once in a while I come across a different kind of picture

case in point the one above.

🙂

did this picture really happen like this or was it propped?

I love pretty pictures.
🙂

I watched NBC night line last night and there was a story on there about Paula Lane, a California woman who was trapped in the Sierra Nevada mountains for 6 days and made it out a live.

this happened last December.

it was amazingly interesting and a miracle that she survived it.
I’m quite sure God was looking out for her.

Not sure I could be as strong and determined as she was.

Google her, it is quite interesting.

I read the other day that my favorite actor Leonardo DiCaprio is going to go to outer space 

his ticket is costing over one and half million dollars.

there will be others going as well but his name was the only one I recognized.

I’m not sure I would go to space

I mean I think I would if the chance  presented itself but at the last-minute I would probably chicken out.

still the idea is appealing.

I bet it is breathtakingly beautiful out there………

I just finished yet another book about falling in love

Sometimes I question my sanity on reading such books.

It was more than just falling in love, but it was about that as well.

and it makes me a bit depressed.

Oh don’t get me wrong, I know my husband loves me.

he tells me every day

but there is no romance and I miss that especially when I read a book about it and or see a movie where there is a loving relationship

I know dear readers you are probably sick of me whining about romance

but I find it sad that I don’t have that in my life.

doesn’t matter if I try and be romantic.

it falls flat because the person (my husband) doesn’t see it and or react to it.

😦

if you haven’t ever seen the movie “Hope Springs” with Tommy Lee Jones and Meryl Streep, you should watch it.
This is how my marriage is…..

up until the end anyway……

I just spent an hour here at work putting lost and found on two tables, a coat rack and a full box of gloves and mittens.

sure hope kids take stuff home.

I have teachers constantly complaining of being too cold.
I don’t control the temperatures like I did at Roosevelt.

and someone is always too hot or too cold

 

I am thanking God for several things but today I am thankful that there is only 3 more school days (counting today) with the kids here.

four until the teachers are gone.

that will be wonderfully nice.

then I can clean and crank up my tunes and everything will once again sparkle like they should.

🙂

I need to take a deep breath and calm down

I need to trust the Lord to grant me the serenity I need to make it through this bad mood I am in.

I want to runaway

but God willing and with His grace I hope I can get over the need to hate everything at this moment and find my peace again.

 

sometimes things are this simple……but it is nice to think about.

🙂

I am in a mood today

literally hate people and life

it started out with someone telling me they know what I am thinking about a certain subject

whoa!
nothing puts me in a bad mood faster than someone who thinks they know me better than I know myself.

I just want to get the bear claws out and go to town on that person’s face

the nerve!

it has put a bad cloud over the entire day

of course not sleeping well last night probably isn’t helping either.

😦

Bitch session………

it royally pisses me off when someone thinks they know me better than I know myself.
The nerve!
The audacity!
Ugh
I hate people who are so full of themselves they think they can read my mind!
they don’t have a freaking clue!
but yet they think they can tell me how I think and feel anyway!

Sometimes I think I need to just go find a deserted island and live by myself.