Here it is, my brand new car

It looks green in this picture but I think it is more a darker blue.

Of course it is a cloudy crappy day so maybe in the bright sunshine it will be green.

I love it.

 

 

 

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Yes we still have nine hours and twenty minutes before the clock strikes midnight and it will be 2020

But …..I won’t be up to see the new year in as I have to work tomorrow at six am and need my beauty sleep

Plus we are watching my nine, five and eighteen month old grandchildren so their parents can go out and paint the town.

 

I do hope everyone has a wonderful new year in whatever they do and that they are safe and happy and healthy.

 

See you in 2020

yep, still yearning for the ocean……….

It is about three fifteen in the morning and I am unable to sleep again.

Lord knows this is driving me crazy.

Second time this week that I wake up and can’t go back to sleep.

I can’t get comfortable so that may be part of the problem.

I lay on my left side a lot of the time.

I try laying on my right side and my hip hurts so much that I can’t do it.

I use to be and love to lay on my stomach, but that bothers my lower back too much.

Right now I feel annoyed and frustrated because I can’t sleep

Darn it anyway……

Today is my day off though so I may be able to nap when I lay Ava down later this morning.

Something to look forward to anyway……

Well here it is December 26th.

Hard to believe.

Five days from now is the last day of 2019

A new year and a new decade begins.

Amazing how quickly it all goes.

 

I wonder what the new year will bring.

I will begin a new job.

Hopefully we will get somethings done around our home.

Everyone will turn another year older.

God willing everyone who is with us now will be with us a year from now.

 

Sigh.

Still wishing I was in sunny warm Florida

I can’t sleep which is awful considering I have to be up in less than four hours to shower and go to work.

Ugh I hate nights like this.

I doze and then something wakes me up.

Usually leg cramps.

I am way too old to try to get through a day with barely four hours of sleep.

Damn it.

 

In two hours and nine minutes it will be Christmas Day.

Not that it means much to me in way of celebrating.
We always have our Christmas on Christmas eve.

Which we did and now it is over with for another year.

I know many people, hundreds of thousands of people will be celebrating tomorrow and sharing their love and time and presents with their loved ones.

We had a good time tonight and even though Paula wasn’t here it was still great.

Rick got me a new laptop, and three pairs of earrings.

They are birthstones for each of my children’s birthday month.

Of course since Paula and Emily share the same month, I only got three pairs instead of four for the four children I have.

🙂

I am working tomorrow.

Like I feel like I do every day.
Still tomorrow should be easier with my coworker back and she is more than willing to do her fair share of work.

 

It is time for bed, but I tried sleeping and I just toss and turn so I m writing a blog.

I love to sleep and will be miserable tomorrow morning when four thirty rolls around and I have to get out of bed and get ready for work.
Ugh.

I hate the thought of it but still I know it is good for me to work and I do believe tomorrow will be double time.

🙂

My body keeps crying for sleep.
Just wish my brain would turn off

Merry Christmas!

 

I am working a 7 day stretch

Today is day 3

The girl who usually works so I can have a day off is leaving for Germany today to spend 2 weeks there. Then she is flying to Paris where she will spend 2 more weeks before coming home to Iowa

No I don’t intend to do 7 days in a row very often while she is gone

Bur this one week won’t kill me

Maybe a month from now i will be over on tge other side where I can just work my job and not have to fill in for others

Sigh

I love this new word I found

Wabi-Sabi

A Japanese term meaning-

A way of living that focuses on finding beauty with the imperfections of life and accepting peacefully the natural cycle of growth and decay 

How cool

🙂

So I came across this magazine at work about a month ago titled Magnolia Journal 

It is inspired by and created by Joanna Gaines and her husband Chip

You may recognize their names from their show Fixer Upper 

I have watched the show a dozen or more times and like the Property Brothers or similar programs they remodel houses

Its Its interesting and some of the places look pretty terrific when they are done with them

AT any rate,  i came across this magazine and find it enchanting in a simple pleasurable way.

I subscribed to it and got my first magazine yesterday

In this months magazine the very pretty totally put together Joanna Gaines talks of in pursuit of Wholeness

Living your best self not just half mother, half wife, or half on the career

But to balance it all and live in Wholeness

Easier said than done in my opinion but never say never

This lovely woman who seems to be able to do it all inspires me

I enjoy reading her thoughts and her views on this thing called life

Lord knows I am never living in complete Wholeness simply because I spend a lot of hours watching TV or entertaining or being entertained by my grandchildren

Don’t get me wrong. I have a pretty damn good life, but I tend to roll with whatever is going on around me

I don’t live in Wholeness

I live in my family, my job,  in others

Rarely is there an hour or more in a day when I do anything just for me

I have kind of lost myself living this life

And while I wouldn’t change any of it, I am aware of not fully living in my Wholeness

One might think I am feeling down and blue about it, but honestly I’m not down or blue

Just thinking outloud and giving a shout out to Joanna Gaines and her ability to have it all

Kudos to all women who can juggle it all

Yesterday I had the day off of work to go and do my testing for becoming a CNA again.
A certified nursing assistant.

I was so nervous when I first got there that I felt like I could puke.

I took several deep breaths and then I prayed to my Lord to guide me, to work through me and to help me get through the entire thing.

And a calm came over me and I knew I was going to do alright.

Oh of course I had a small bit of doubt.

I felt if it was something that was meant to be then God would see me through it.

Doing clinicals which was part of the test, it is doing things for a mock patient and having someone watch your every move and grading you on it.

To me that is just as bad as getting up in front of a classroom of people and giving a speech.

I am not comfortable with any of it.

But as I said, I felt God was with me, within me and helped guide me to a successful outcome.

In every aspect of my life I know God is with me.

Sometimes I feel it stronger than other times.

Yesterday I felt it very strongly.

I am very blessed and undeserving for all of my blessings.
But for some reason the Good Lord always has my back.

I am very grateful.