Archive for August, 2010


off

I know of no other way to describe it, but I just feel “Off”
I have felt this way for a few days now.
I am tired all of the time, have no energy and occasionally I feel like I could faint.
I am guessing I have a virus of some kind.
I break out in a sweat every few hours or so, and even if I am standing in an air conditioned room, I am hot.
Maybe it is just menopause?
I don’t know…..

my husband and I went to a class yesterday on diabetes.
he was diagnosed a week ago with this disease.
We got see a dietitian next week and learn more on what to eat and not eat

living with a diabetic is challenging.
We can’t just go out to eat now without paying close attention to what he is eating .

For instance if he has a burrito, you have to count the shell, the meat, the salsa, the vegetables, if there are any, but you can’t count it all as one thing, you have to dissect it and make it work that way

and portion control is another concern.

This is a man who would eat four hamburgers in one setting.
Going from four to one, is going to be hard for him.

I must say though, he is agreeable and knows that this is what must be done.

I told him I will eat what he eats, that I will cook for him and I will eat it and not complain.
Basically cutting all sugar out of a diet and keeping the carbs low.

It is a positive thing when he is so agreeable and willing.
And maybe I will lose some weight too in the process.
🙂

Ain’t no sunshine when she’s gone, only darkness every day, ain’t no sunshine when she’s gone, and she’s always gone too long, any time she goes away……..

I love my grandchildren.
I love them so much it is almost painful at times.
however I had my two youngest grand daughters, Keira and Kayla over night on Saturday night.
I had them from nine thirty till one thirty that morning and then they came to stay over night on Saturday night.
We got them back around five thirty and their mother came to get them at eleven thirty Sunday morning.

Why am I telling you this???

Because when I had them, my house was a disgusting mess, and they were fighting with each other and basically being rowdy and a headache.

Once they were gone, I felt an emptiness.
Yes my house was put back into order and even cleaned and there was peace and quiet every where.

but I realized yesterday afternoon that I would prefer the headaches and messy house compared to the quietness and emptiness of when they left.

I also had Aaron a bit on Saturday and he laughed for me for the first time.
it brought tears to my eyes.
🙂
No greater treasure in the world than my grandchildren.
🙂

forget the plans

so I had great plans today.
Clean my house and work in the yard.
Then my daughter in law asked me to watch her girls while she went to play in a softball tournament so I agreed.
I had them for four hours and then got my grandson which I have had now for three and a half hours.
He is sleeping right now but I can’t clean while he is sleeping (running the vacuum cleaner)

so I have to wait.
The grand girls, Keira and Kayla are coming back to stay the night while their parents go bowling.
Their league starts up again and runs through May.

They don’t have to stay the night but Keira asked if they could so they will.

So tomorrow after I send the girl’s home, I will finish up my cleaning
The yard work can wait.
I don’t really want to deal with the mosquitoes very much any way.

 🙂

what to say today?

well let’s see, what can I talk about today?
I have been up since three am, with stomach issues.
Rather annoying.
It was almost to the point that I was going to call in sick but it got better, or at least well enough for me to be here.

Thrilled that it is Friday.
I wonder how many people aren’t thrilled that it is Friday?
I can’t imagine there are too many.

finally got around to buying my eldest sister her birthday present, (only 28 days late) now I just have to find the card I bought her and send it to her.

Easy pease huh?
not really.
I bought a beautiful card for my grand-daughter for her birthday and do you think I could find it when it came time to give it to her?
Of course a few days after her birthday I found it.
Always the way with me it seems

I had the writing bug yesterday and got about fifty pages written, than my husband and I went out to eat last night and I came home and I had lost the ability to write.
Quite depressing.
😦

The weather is still perfect out.
Although they say the humidity is coming back on Sunday

Which isn’t good, but hey we got five days without it so that is great to me.
🙂

well I am at work so I suppose the thing to do is work huh?

they don’t pay me to play on the computer…..so until next time…..

Happy Anniversary to me

Today my husband and I have been married for 28 years.
Hard to believe.
Sometimes it seems like yesterday when we married.
When we were young and full of dreams and nothing else mattered except us and our little world.

Today we have four grown children, two daughter-in-laws and two significant others,  four grandchildren and we are friends as much as we are  husband and wife.
We actually talked about this the other night.
How our worlds have revolved from when we were so young and innocent.
Our wants and needs have changed and all we really want is honesty, fidelity and someone to stand by us until we part in death.

marriage is work, any one who tells you differently is living in a bubble of disillusionment.

sometimes you can love so much, sometimes that love can almost turn into hate….but through thick and thin, and up and down, it is great to know that someone has my back and he will always be there for me at the end of the day.
🙂

am I fickle?

I don’t think I am wishy-washy

I have my beliefs and my standards and I know right from wrong.

Although I do change my feelings towards some people from time to time.
Being fickle is defined as not staying constant,  so maybe I am fickle?

when I love I love deeply, but people can make me feel less in love with them by things they do or don’t do.
Does that make me fickle?

the feelings are constant, ….however…..I do feel less desire to be with this person when certain things happen…..

maybe I just need to see a psychiatrist?

so we have a recycle program at my school

we recycle paper and cardboard.
So this morning I am emptying a recycle bin to put into a large bin that I wheel out in to the designated spot for them to come and pick up on Friday morning.

Anyway this morning I find two books at the bottom of the recycle bin.
that pains me.
Why would anyone throw away a book?

If nothing else take it to Goodwill and let them try to sell it.

one is called “Talk of the Town” by Lisa Wingate and the other is “Shoe Addicts Anonymous”  by Beth Harbison

and while neither book looks like something I would buy for myself to read, it still causes me pain to think someone was just going to throw them away.

I will try to read both.
Just because to me it was a gift to find a book at the bottom of the recycle bin and I always accept gifts.
🙂

a new author

I discovered a new author and I have to say I love his writing.
He is David Baldacci and he writes so well and it is so intense and exciting.

I haven’t finished his book yet, I am in the middle of it and it is titled “First Family” it is exceptionally good and I know I will be reading many more of his books.
I can hardly put this one down.
It keeps me wondering and guessing and trying to figure out the plot.

I love finding new authors!!!

ahh we are in paradise here in southern Iowa.
It is a beautiful humid free morning.
the birds are chirping and the sun is glowing with a few white puffy clouds in the sky.
the temperature is around 65 and it is a glorious day.
If only every day could be this wonderful weather wise.
🙂