Keira and Kayla came over today and spent about five hours with me.
They just left and went home with their father.

It is always great to see them and with this coronavirus going around it is hard to find time to see them

This morning I was outside and could feel myself getting quite warm in the sun even though it was a very cool windy day.
All afternoon my grand daughters and I were outside and now I can’t get warm.

I assume it is to do with being tired but I think I may have gotten a touch of too much sun too because it always makes me tired.

I love it.

Don’t get me wrong.
The sun brings such warmth and comfort to me.

I worked in the yard a bit today too.
Sure wish the seventies would come back and stay.
Sigh

Not sure when I will see Keira and Kayla again.

Probably not for another week or more.

😦

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I spent the majority of my day with my 18 month old grand daughter.
it was pure delight.
I haven’t seen her since Sunday and it was so very wonderful to have some time with her.

She is starting to talk more and she is so funny and smart.
She along with the other five bring me such joy.

Being Nana is one of the most wonderful things I have in my life.
They truly are my gifts from God.

🙂

It is eleven thirty pm on this Saturday night.
The house is quiet.
All are sleeping except me of course.
I think my body has gotten so use to being up all night from working third shift that I find it hard to sleep when I am off.

But alas…..I work the next four nights after tonight so…..

This is my big week.
I work six out of the seven days this week.

I hate the long week but I think working is good for me so I enjoy it and know I feel better physically when I am working.

There was a lot of bumming on these few days off.

I can even admit to being bored a time or two.

NOT because there wasn’t things to do but more that the things I could have done or should have done, didn’t appeal to me.

I want to be outside.

Today was decent, about 35 degrees warm enough to wash all the gunk off of my car.

It is nice and clean again.

But not warm enough to be out working in the yard.

 

Had Brian’s little birthday dinner.

Which was nice.

The only one missing was Paula but she will be here next weekend and they will all get together then.
I probably won’t join them as I will have to work both Friday and Saturday nights and will need sleep before I go to work.

But we shall see.

Maybe I can get away with not sleeping before I go in on Saturday night.

The five younger grandchildren are here all sleeping around me.

🙂

Anyway they are having a little party of sorts, next Sunday when Emily gets her hair shaved off.

Her hair dresser suggested they do a big deal about it with friends and her kids if she wants.

Paula will go and I will probably too.
Just to take pictures and have them for her to remeember the occasion by.

I think shaving her head for surgery is going to be a pretty big deal for Emily.

I am quite sure she hasn’t let the full impact of all of this hit her just yet.

But once her head is shaven, it will.

 

I suggested she buy a wig but she thinks they are too expensive but I will help pay for one if that is something she decides to do later on.

It is hard to say how long it will take her to grow a full head of hair back.

Adam bless his heart, it going to shave his head too just so that they can go through it together.

Ten days from today is her surgery.
Actually ten days from today she will be out of surgery and in ICU for the night and God willing it will all be well and she will do fine.

I won’t lie, I am a bit worried but I know I have to put it in God’s hands and He will do what He thinks is best.

I hope and pray He believes Emily is needed to see her children to adults.

I can’t imagine a life without her in it and I don’t ever want to.

I never want to outlive any of my children or grandchildren.

I don’t know that I could do it.

Oh deep down I know I could, I just don’t want to.

And God willing I will never have to.

 

My aunt Loretta became a horrible alcoholic when she lost her son Jerry in 1974

Who died at twenty one from getting hit by a truck when he was on his motorcycle.
And then eleven years later one of her daughters was murdered by a man who she had been dating but broke up with.

And then she lost a daughter to cancer, 2 actually and another son to a heart attack.

All before my aunt passed from this earth.

It would be horrific to have to survive losing a child, not to mention her losing five of the ten she had.

I hope I never have to endure that.
And God willing I won’t.

 

Anyway I don’t mean to be morbid or think of death or even write about it.

It is just on my mind with Emily and I hope it will all be fine.

My life is pretty damn good just the way it is and honestly I don’t want any of it to change.

Sure I could have more money and be thinner as I always say.

But both are a work in progress.

I am a very blessed woman and I know it.

 

My youngest daughter Emily is having brain surgery on February 25th.

The doctor is going to cut her head open from ear to ear.

She has to shave her head for surgery.

It will be a six hour surgery to remove the lime size cyst on her frontal lobe.

He said he can’t take all of it because it is intertwined with blood vessels but he thinks he can get 99% of it.

God willing it will all be fine and she will make it through and recover nicely.

Her children, Aaron 9, Bailey 5 and Ava 18 months need their mother.
And I know Adam doesn’t want to raise the kids without her.
God willing it will all be fine.

I pray every night that it will be.

From left to right, Matt, Emily, Rick, Me, Paula and Brian

Tomorrow we are celebrating my eldest son’s birthday.

His birthday isn’t until February 25th, but my youngest daughter is having Brain surgery that day so we have to do it earlier.

Brian will be 39

Not sure how it is possible to have a 39 year old but it is.
Our oldest daughter will be 41 here in about 3 weeks.

I must be getting old.
🙂

Brian is my quiet laid back son.
He rarely lets anything ruffle his feathers.

He is a hard worker but struggles with money issues (not always making the best choices money wise)

But he is a good man and I love him dearly.

No not more than the other three, but Brian is a kind hearted man who loves his mother and isn’t afraid of showing it.
🙂

This was taken on Brian’s wedding day.

this was in 2008

From left to right, Rick, Emily, Brian, Paula, Matt and Me.

 

Well we had our Thanksgiving with our children and their families last night.

Everyone was here by six thirty and they were all gone by eight thirty.

We had Turkey with dressing, Ham, mashed potatoes and gravy, home made cranberry sauce from our eldest daughter Paula, scalloped corn, green bean casserole, rolls and pumpkin pie, and or chocolate cream pie (for my grandson as he doesn’t like pumpkin pie)

It was a bit insane eating all of that so late at night but it is the only time that worked for all of my kids.

They will go to their spouses Thanksgiving dinners on Thursday and I will be at work from 6 till two that day.

So this was our only time to have our Thanksgiving.

I suggested we just not have it at all this year but the kids vetoed that.

 

So anyway that is done for another year.

I didn’t take any pictures because my kids tend to object to it so I will wait and do that on Christmas Eve.

Any hoo….we have tons and I do mean tons of left overs.

And anyone who knows me knows I am not a bit left over person.

I will eat some, but definitely not days and days of it.

 

On another note I am staying at my youngest daughters house while her family of five go to Minnesota to spend with her in-laws.

To house sit and watch her dogs.

I do have to work on Thursday as I mentioned and Saturday and Sunday 6 am till 6 pm, but when I am not working I will be dog sitting.

Which will mainly be at night tonight, tomorrow night, all day Friday and we shall see about Saturday night.

Emily seems to think they will be home on Saturday.

🙂

If you had one wish, only one, what would it be?
What would that one thing be that you want above all others?
Living to be a hundred?
More money then you knew what to do with?
Being a successful novelist?

Bringing back a loved one?

Right a wrong you once made?

What would that one wish be?

I understand that it would take a lot of thinking to come up with that one thing.

But if I had one wish,  just one~ it would be that my four children and their spouses and children and my husband Rick, would know and love the Lord Jesus Christ as much as I do, and know that only through Him, will they have everlasting life.

All the money in the world will not bring my family and loved ones closer to God and His Son.

Righting wrongs from the past definitely wouldn’t do it.

Being a successful novelist or anything else being successful at…..would not bring them closer to Our Lord.

That is my one wish.

I pray nightly that God help me find the words to teach and talk to my children, husband and grandchildren, to work through me to bring them all closer to Him.

Only through God and His Son will they live in Heaven one day.

God willing, one day I will be able to help them find the way…..

 

Today is my 12th day off

I work the next two days both twelve hour days.

One part of me dreads it.

The other part is looking forward to it.

Why you may wonder?
Well as much as I love my grandchildren and I do I love them more than I love my own life…….I miss the interaction of being with adults.

I miss just doing something other than revolving my day around my grandchildren.

And to be honest, the older two, Aaron who is 8 and Bailey who is 5, they both back talk to me and I detest that.

I keep telling them to stop, but I won’t spank them and or slap them.

It is not my place.

I did cuss at Aaron earlier because I had to tell him something three times before I cussed and he did as I said.

I am not proud of that, but it shouldn’t take me three times to tell him anything.

And Bailey loves to tell me no.
Which pisses me off.
I tell her over and over that I will not except her back talking to me.

She has been put in the corner several times and or made to lay down and take a nap.

She is always always so much happier and nicer after a nap.

Still if I could choose I would choose to not work at all.

Unfortunately that isn’t realistic now.

Maybe in a few years.

Right now I need money to pay bills.

I got paid today and after paying bills I have three dollars left.

It is depressing to me.

So I am going to have to tell my boss to put me on a few more days a week so I can make more money.

Sigh.

Now I have a three day break from my grandchildren because I work the next two days and then my son in law doesn’t work on Monday due to Veterans day being on Sunday.

My husband is off that day as well.

We may go to a movie or two.

There are several I would like to see.

I will miss my darling Ava though.

My three month old grand daughter.

She and I have bonded and I will miss not holding her precious little body to my chest and have her look at me with her beautiful blue eyes.

I will miss Aaron and Bailey too but not their back talking…..

So here I will be working twenty four out of the next forty nine hours.

Hope it goes well.

Happy Weekend!

 

My precious baby girl is sick now.

I was so hoping she wouldn’t get it but alas…..she has the flu.

She has had diarrhea four times today and has done some projectile vomiting twice now.

I feel so badly for her.

She is in a happy mood though so I am grateful for that.

Love her so much.

 

 

Ava, Ava Marie, don’t you know how wonderful you are to me?
Your beautiful eyes, your cute little nose…….Nana loves you all the way to your toes

Miss Ava, Ava Marie, don’t you know how beautiful you are to me?
I love you so much my sweat pea

Miss AAAAva, AAAAva  AAAva Marie.

I sing in to the tune of Mr Sandman.

Most of the time she smiles when I sing it to her.

I made up songs for the other four grandkids too when they were little but I can’t remember them now…..