So many years ago, 26 to be exact, in our small little town of West Liberty Iowa, a murder took place.

A young man lost his life while he was sleeping in his bed.

Someone came in and beat him to death with a baseball bat.

The case has ran cold all of these years.

Well today, this afternoon actually, we find out that my husband’s cousin, killed this man all those years ago.

She was dating him and because she thought he was cheating on her, she beat him to death.

It is horrific and shocking to think this woman that we know, that my husband is related to, could do this horrible thing.

By the way people talked they did a lot of drugs back then, and they assumed all these years that it was a drug related killing.

Only now to find out that she killed him.

I guess she was arrested earlier today and confessed to the killing.

She is 55 and married with children and grandchildren.

I still find it so hard to believe.

I’m not trying to be judgmental but how could she live with herself all these years?
How was it possible to carry such a horrible secret for so long?
How did she not feel terrified every single time someone came knocking on her door, that it wasn’t the police coming to arrest her?

I imagine she will spend the rest of her life is prison.

She is a nice woman.

A happy woman.

I just find it incredible and a bit scary too.

Just goes to show once again that you never really know people…….

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In eight weeks and one day, I will be welcoming a new grandchild into the world

Unless she comes sooner, my daughter and her doctor have decided to induce her on July 26th

And then little Miss Ava Marie will make her way into the world.

Another grand daughter…..

I love being Nana and it will be a blessing and privilege to watch her when her mama goes back to work in September

🙂

 

it is 3 AM, fours hours down and four to go……

I am very tired

The diet Mountain Dew I drank  earlier is not helping to keep me awake.

Sigh

I am tired.

I am off for three days after tonight

I so love my days off

Someday……I will never have to work again…..

I long for those days.

 

 

Some times things don’t go the way we want them to or even expect them to.

Some times all hell breaks loose and we are left scratching our heads in bewilderment

None of it is in our control

Oh we may plan to go down a certain path, but only God knows the true plan

We can fight it, try to rebel against ut, but what will be is out of our control.

In another world all our dreams would come true, in this world we are at the mercy of God

I just finished the above titled show and I have to say it was quite good.

Yes, it is a show meant for teenagers fifteen to nineteen, but it is done so well that I could not watch

I Started watching it a year ago because my then fourteen year old and eleven year old grand daughters were watching it and I wanted to see what it was about

It is about suicide, and rape and bullying.

It is a show I think every parent of children under 18 should watch, maybe with their child and then discuss it

My eleven year old grand daughter got bored with it after two episodes.

Which I think is good because it was / is too old for her

There are graphic parts and those are very hard to watch.

But it was very well done.

 

 

My sister Kathy gave me a $50 gift card to Barnes and Noble.

I finally got to use it today.

The first time I tried to use it, it said the card had not been activated.
But I tried again today and it took it.

🙂

As silly as this may sound to some people….I bought season Three and Four of Breaking Bad.

I love that show.

I have the first two seasons and I will have to buy the last one, season five, but it can wait for another day.

I was thrilled that the gift card finally worked.

Not sure why it didn’t the first time unless I some how punched in the wrong code.

Anything is possible with me.

Sigh.

 

 

I detest bugs.

Literally detest them.

It ruins summer for me.

I love winter spring and fall but hate summer due to the bugs.

I literally would prefer to be inside than out when I have to deal with mosquitoes and gnats and anything else that hoovers around me and wants to take a bite.

It really makes summer a pain in the backside when I have to be over come by bugs.

I have read that certain people attract bugs more often than others do.

And I am one that the pests love.

I was just sitting outside watching my grand daughters play in a small pool we have.

I have the fan right on me in hopes it would cause the pesky creatures to leave me alone.
But nope they still hoover

How I hate them.

Something bit me on the top of my head.

It itches like mad.

And while most people would say “put on bug spray”
I can’t stand the smell of it and I would rather be inside.

Ugh

 

I use to complain when no one would write on their blogs.

There use to be a time when I blogged every day, always feeling like I had something to say…..

Often I would blog several posts in one day….

However I have become very lax in my blogging and I know this….

I don’t even really have an excuse except to say I rarely get on the computer.

My days seem to fly by…..

Its Memorial Day weekend this weekend already!

Where does the time go?

Between working and going to my grandchildren’s ball games I feel like time flies.

And I don’t watch a lot of TV either, so I have no idea where time goes.

Hence I am always busy and never think about blogging…..

At this moment it is almost one am and I am at work.

My nightly chores are done and while I have things I could do, I have five more hours to get through, so there is plenty of time to get it all done…..

So I am blogging…..

On a side note Paula may come down this weekend

I sure hope so, it’s been two months since she has been home and I love seeing her beautiful face

🙂

 

 

 

I am at work on this Friday night, and then I am off till Tuesday night at eleven pm

I requested tomorrow off due to my grand daughter having her dance recital.

But my boss gave me both days off and as much as I like the money, I am taking the entire weekend off

For no other reason then because I can

Starting the weekend of the 19th I am going to be working every weekend so I am going to enjoy my last weekend off

Sunday is Mother’s Day, and I have no idea if my kids are planning anything or not

If so, no one has told me about it

Sigh

Yes I miss the beach

I wrote this back in May and just found it in my drafts…..

Not sure why some things go straight to publication and others don’t……

Everyone  knows the song Uptown Funk by Bruno Mars, so I am the opposite, hence the title of this blog

I am in a funk due to coming off of vacation, and not being thrilled with my job, especially the shifts I work, and overall the unhappiness of myself

Do you know not one person besides my sister Kathy got me anything for my birthday?

Not one of my kids or even my husband got me a single thing

And yeah that hurts my feelings

Yeah we went to Florida, but I paid for it myself

I could easily have gone by myself

It is something I always make a big deal of, my kids birthdays

Or even my husbands

We always get together with food and visiting AND cake and ice cream for his birthday

And now Mother’s Day is this Sunday, and no plans have been made

It makes me feel very unloved and unappreciated.

And no I am not one of those people that insist that people make a big deal of my birthday or Mothers Day

If I have to insist on presents and attention, then it isn’t from their hearts.

It would be more of an obligation

And I refuse to make anyone feel obligated

Hence I get ignored

And I do not want anyone to tell my kids or husband…….hey pay attention more to your mom or wife

If they have to be reminded then again there is no point

 

I do think maybe I should ignore my kids birthdays and not get them anything so they can see how being ignored feels

It hurts

I guess deep down I feel like I have no self worth

I am not important enough to anyone

I guess I just need to find something out there for myself

Sigh