Archive for January 2020

Rest In Peace   Leave a comment




Posted January 31, 2020 by Marge in Uncategorized

Needing Something~   Leave a comment

I am blue.

I could just need a day of full sun shine.

Or a vacation.

Or something more than working and trying to function in between.


Nothing exciting happens with me and my life.

Same old thing just a different day.

Maybe it is the winter blues.


Maybe it is wishing I didn’t have to work.

Whatever it is I long for the beach and the warm sunshine.





Posted January 29, 2020 by Marge in heartfelt, ramblings

Thank You God   Leave a comment

Life is good

My daughter’s lime size mass in her brain is just a cyst

The doctor said she could have been born with it or had a head injury that caused it

She was in a car accident with her grandfather when she was 7 and she hit her head pretty hard then


She will have to have surgery to remove it

She goes to see a surgeon on February 4th to find out how it will be done and when he will do it

The tonsil surgery is post poned indefinitely

Thank you Lord for answering my prayers


Posted January 24, 2020 by Marge in Uncategorized

Is This A Test?   1 comment

Am I being tested?
Is the good Lord putting my faith to the test?

Is this even about me?

I got some troublesome news today.

Something I can’t share until I have more information.

Something that I keep praying and praying to the Lord about since I heard about it.

I have complete faith in God.

I believe whatever happens will not make my faith for Him sway one bit.

I do believe with all of my heart that God is in control and anything He puts before me I can handle because I know He will be there with me.  Carrying me through if need be.

I don’t want this bad news and I don’t want one single thing in my life to change.

I have always felt so blessed and grateful for all of the blessings God has given me.

I have even said I am unworthy of all the blessing He has graced me with.

But again is this even about me?
No doubt about it, if this turns out bad it will affect me like nothing ever has before.

I’m not sure how I will live through it.

But again, I know I will get through it because God is with me.

At this moment in time all I can do is hope and pray.

And God willing it will all turn out fine.

So I will keep praying and put my faith in My Lord.



Posted January 21, 2020 by Marge in God, heartfelt, ramblings

The Woman Behind The Mask~   Leave a comment

Do you ever feel like you aren’t living up to your potential?
Do you ever feel like no one knows the real you?
I contemplate these thoughts quite often of late.

Who am I if not a wife, mother and grandmother?
Who am I standing alone?
Who am I behind the mask?

If there was no one to think about but myself where would I be?
Where would I live?
What would I be doing with myself?

I live in West Liberty Iowa because that is where my husband wants to live.

I wrap my life around my four kids and their families.

My six grand children whom I adore and would never ever want to live without.

But if I woke up tomorrow and it was just me, where would I go and what would I do?

Deep down I want to live a simpler life.

I want to live off the land, live away from civilization

Live in complete oneness with the earth.

Don’t get me wrong, I do not want my life to change in anyway shape or form.

But I sometimes wonder if it was just me where would I be?
Definitely not in West Liberty Iowa

I see myself in Montana or Wyoming or Utah.

living simply



Posted January 20, 2020 by Marge in heartfelt, ramblings

I think I am going to like it~   Leave a comment

So I did my first third shift last night as a CNA.

I liked it.
It went fast and I enjoy the work.

I hope it keeps going well.

Got home at six fifteen, was in bed by seven.

Slept till ten thirty, got up to go the bathroom and went back to bed and got up at two.

Showered and made chicken fajita’s for a late lunch early supper

Now it is four pm and I have a little less than six hours before I have to be back at work.

I will try and nap again before I go.

Probably around six or seven.

I have tomorrow night off so I will only sleep about three hours tomorrow morning.

WE don’t have the kids until WEdnesday so not sure what we will do tomorrow.

There are always things I could do.

I don’t have to leave the house to keep busy.

But we shall see.


Oh on another note we went to “Knives Out” the other day and I wouldn’t recommend it to anyone.

A rather dumb movie for all the big stars that were in it.





Posted January 20, 2020 by Marge in ramblings

Just because   Leave a comment


I love a pretty picture



Posted January 16, 2020 by Marge in Uncategorized

Tired of the Political Stuff~   Leave a comment

It seems every damn channel is about the politics and who will be president.

I am very sick of it.
Even You-Tube has them before the songs.

It is annoying.

I get it, that it is a election year.
But it is so old to listen to the people running criticize Trump (Whom I dislike immensely) and brag about themselves and how wonderful they would be if they were president.

Biden and Tom Steyer are the two who run Trump down the most.

Although Elizabeth Warren does to in a round about way.

And this stupid ass impeachment thing.

They aren’t going to do anything to get Trump out even if they do go through with the impeachment.

it is a waste of money and time.

AND I fully believe Trump killed that General in Iran because the government is trying to impeach him.

Showing everyone that he can do what he wants and no one can stop him.


Just so very sick of the entire thing.


Posted January 15, 2020 by Marge in heartfelt, ramblings

Screaming inside~   Leave a comment

so here is the deal and the reason for the above title……

I have been sleeping for the last two hours, not now though obviously.

Slept great and had no trouble falling asleep.

I wake up as I am rolling from my left side onto my back or to my right side.

Nope, right side is not comfortable at the moment so I roll back to my back.

Out of no where comes this lighting bolt pain in the side of my knee.

I moan with the pain not yet willing to wake up fully and acknowledge that once again my arthritis is going to hit me full force once again.

But unfortunately the longer I lay there the more the lighting bolt pain keeps returning.

I grab the bengay from my night stand and rub it all over my knee, back, front and the sides, especially the left side as that is where the highest level of pain comes from.
Radiates from.

Unfortunately it does no good.

The lighting bolts keep coming.

So I get up, and use the bathroom, because if I don’t…..a half hour or so I will wake up again having to go to the bathroom.

I take ibuprofen for the knee pain.

I lay back down, feeling wide awake, thus I am blogging.

Now mind you I have to be up by four thirty to shower and eat before getting to work at six.


Every morning I struggle with getting up because I am so tired.

Tomorrow morning will be no different

And still I am awake.






Posted January 13, 2020 by Marge in ramblings

What Do You See?   Leave a comment


There is something powerful in this picture.

One can see so much in it.

Particles of the brain swirling around you.

The body falling to pieces one crack at a time…..


Just so interesting……

Posted January 13, 2020 by Marge in ramblings