Today was the perfect day weather wise.

I honestly don’t think it could be any better.

Just beautiful

The temp was about 74 with a very slight breeze and full sunshine.

Just loved it.

I worked in the yard, sunbathed a bit and just basked in the gloriousness of it.

Went to Iowa City, and Durant this morning to have breakfast with Matt and his oldest daughter Keira.

It was a very nice even tempo day….no stress a lot of sunshine and just perfect.

Love days like this.
Wish it never got warmer than 80 degrees.

Sigh

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I am here at work with just under 3 hours to go

I am on the computer working on training that we have to do each month

The one I am doing now is about infectious diseases and how to try to keep them out of the work place

This certain one was supposed to be done in March

Oops

I have 2 for April to do and 2 for May and since it is almost June it is obvious that I am very behind

Needless to say I hate doing them

Sigh

 

They are usually an hour long and boring

Sigh

 

There are 3 of us tonight which means I lose 5 residents to care for

Which makes the night go slower

Sure wish I could find a job I like to finish out these last 6 years

Sigh

 

Matt, Crystal, Brian, Tonyia, Emily and I started a diet today.
Well we are doing the biggest loser challenge.

We each put in $100 and the person who loses the most by Labor Day wins the entire jackpot.

I have already gone without pop for a week.

I drank mountain dew every night when I was working third shift.

Now I drink crystal light with caffeine in it to help keep me awake.

It doesn’t work as well as the mountain dew did but it is better for me.

 

I am giving up sugar and of course I have to start exercising.

I need to lose fifty pounds.

I will be happy if I lose forty.

Hell anything will be an improvement.

 

Also I need to tone up.

Especially in my arms.

They are ugly and very flabby.

Ugh.

 

I have no illusions that I will win the jackpot.

But it gives me motivation and that is what I need.

🙂

Im at work and wishing I wasn’t

What else is new?

Im dealing with stomach issues which makes it hard to work

 

Ahh life….

 

Im still finding it very hard to believe that Jason has died

I know he did but how can it be possible?

The autopsy said he had the coronavirus and hardened arteries and an enlarged heart

Death ruled as a heart attack

39 years old

I just don’t see how it is possible

 

I know God called him home for a reason and I don’t have the bigger picture

Jason had many friends but I don’t know if he ever was truly happy

I hope he was but deep down I know he had issues

 

I miss knowing he is here on earth

So my computer, laptop has been bugging me for a few days that it needs to upgrade so I clicked on it to upgrade.

Then when I get back on it says my password no longer works.

Why wouldn’t it tell me before hand that it wasn’t going to work?

Ticks me off when things get changed when there is no reason to change them.

So I typed in what the password on the Microsoft account should be and it denies it.

So I am racking my brain trying to think of what the password would be.
It keeps denying it.

So finally I type in the first password I used and guess what, it accepts it this time??????????
Good Lord I hate electronics.

Ugh

My husband’s nephew passed away today May 15th.
He was 39 years old.
We haven’t gotten the results back yet from the autopsy but he was mowing the lawn and had to sit down because he was having problems breathing.
He called his wife and told her he couldn’t breathe very well and then she said he took two gasps and quit talking to her.

She raced home to find him already gone.

Last month Jason had the coronavirus.

I’m wondering if that did something to his lungs or heart?

Regardless it is so sad that this young man’s life has ended.

He grew up with my kids.

My eldest son Brian and Jason played a lot together.

For a while they were best friends.

 

He was married with three kids.

His sons are over eighteen and his daughter is fifteen.

Rest in Peace Jason.

You will be missed.

Got off of work at six and dyed my hair and then slept for two hours after I showered.

It is a warmer day, going to hit seventy and it is cloudy and muggy.

I need a few groceries but I haven’t made up my mind yet if I want to take the time or the money to go and get them

Nothing major just a few small things.

Rick is watching my three younger grandkids so I have the house to myself.

Which is nice

But again I feel a bit out of sorts in the sense that I am floundering.

I mentioned something like it the other day in a blog.

I feel it more often than not.
And maybe it has to do with the social distancing and not being allowed to do much of anything.

I don’t know.

Maybe it has to do with working third shift and not seeing everyone as much as I would like?

Ahh life……

Wish I was rich….

 

 

 

 

only my youngest son and his two girls thought it was nice enough to come and visit me on Mother’s day.

Brian and Emily just sent me a text and Paula hasn’t acknowledged it at all.

I never say anything but we always do a grill out for Rick for father’s day and his birthday.

I suppose that is my doing.

But nothing got done for my birthday except going to Emily’s for lunch and nothing at all was done for Mother’s day.

I know they all favor him over me.

It shows in a million little ways.

Whatever…..

 

 

I have to admit I am feeling a bit like I am barely living in this life

We can’t go anywhere due to the coronavirus and life almost seems like it is at a standstill

I feel stagnant

I feel bland

Life is blah, especially on these cold days

Sunday’s weather was beautiful and now it is cold and miserable again

It definitely affects my mood

I feel as though I am living half a life sometimes

Maybe it is the working 3rd shift?

Im not sure what it is but I do feel blah more often than I don’t

I need a change a pick me up uf you will

Honestly I need the ocean

I turned 59 today

Hard to believe really

I don’t feel 59 most of the time

Some times I do but for the most part I don’t

But my children are 41, 39, 34 and 31 so I have to be aging too

🙂

It wasn’t a spectacular day

My eldest text me happy birthday very early this morning which was great

The other 3 did as well

I got 2 $50 gift cards to Red Lobster my favorite place to eat

One from my son Matt and the other from my sister Kathy.

My eldest sister gave me $30

My youngest daughter Emily gave me flowers and we ate lunch over at her house today

My grand daughter Bailey made me a few little trikets too

And Rick did finish the walls of the garage

🙂

 

I unfortunately had to work because my boss forgot to let me have it off

She apologized to me though

I have a lot of things to be thankful for and overall it was a good day

I would prefer to be in Florida on the beach though which is how I usually spend my birthday

Maybe next year

🙂