Once upon a time I was deeply and irrevocably in love with a man who made me feel like a queen.
I felt cherished and adored and so loved
Unfortunately it didn’t last and he broke my heart
The common sense part of me knows we had a good run and a fantastic relationship and it just ran it’s course
I may not be the smartest woman in the world but I do feel like I have a pretty good head on my shoulders
I survived and think I am a better person for the relationship
He is in the past and that is where he will stay
However, once in a blue moon, about two or three times a year I see him
And I won’t lie, it breaks my heart
I loved him very much and honestly I imagine I always will
Well I saw him yesterday, and as always it is painful
I know it is pathetic and sad of me to still mourn him, but I do mourn him for a few days after I see him
He ended our relationship, and maybe if I had ended it, I may not feel so alone and lonely every time I see him and a few days after
It is all so pathetic of me….
I wish I could change how I feel. I have prayed and prayed over it
I have a good life with a beautiful family and a few friends……so I know I can continue on and live a good life without him, because I do it year after year.
Why then does my heart break all over again when I see him?