once you become detached from things……they don’t own you any longer……….

Why aren’t men more romantic?
Why don’t they have a clue?
When I tell him how I want things to be, and looks at me like I’m speaking some foreign language.

why can’t he get that I need more?

why can’t he understand and try?
why? why? why?

 

I’m in the mood for romance

I’m in the mood for fun

I’m in the mood for walking on the beach

I believe I was born to run

I am in the mood for a quiet evening

or a vacation somewhere cool

I’m definitely not in the mood for being where I am right now

here at work…….

😦

maybe I should go hide?
🙂

put me right here.

this is a place of beauty

I think it is in Hawaii, but I’m not quite sure.

where ever it is, I want to be here.
🙂

walk with me through this field of beauty, stand close and hold me tight.

kiss me and promise me forever….and everything in my world will feel right.

my brother’s first wife Joann, is in this picture above

Joann is a free spirit

she does what she wants and goes where she wants to go and ventures out of her comfort zone to do what pleases her.
I envy her.

She has told me in so many words that it is “ME” that keeps me rooted where I am and not out living the life I want to live, like she does.

I would love to just be a carefree spirit like she is.
But I don’t feel that I can.
I have responsibilities and obligations that keep me grounded.
Not only to my husband but to my children and grandchildren.

and while Joann has children and grandchildren she still takes care of her wants and needs first.

My family is my world

I can’t see uprooting their worlds just to take care of my needs.

There is a huge part of me that wants to put me first and explore this country the way Joann is.
But there is the other part of me that can’t break free and hurt or disappoint my loved ones.

so I live through Joann and all the things she conquers.
🙂

and go on envying her.

Your suffering comes from needing things to be different.  When you stop that, than your suffering stops.  You can want things, but it is the needing that must go

 

By Dr.Wayne W. Dyer

I am at work, another Monday…….

I would love to say I am happy to be here, but I’m not.
Oh I know I am lucky to have a job and I know I shouldn’t complain but really as I told my sister earlier I am just bored with my job

honestly I am bored with my life.

Literally bored.

not sure what to do to shake it up, but I have to say……I need to plan a vacation or something to give me a light at the end of the tunnel to look forward to.

I know I am going on a long trip in late April early May, but hell that is seven months away.
I need something closer than that.

even if it is a long weekend……

sigh…..

I have bills that need paid….I shouldn’t be thinking about a mini vacation…..

but how to stop myself?
it is the only thing that keeps me going some days…..is that thought of vacation….

and my grandchildren too of course.
🙂

you can’t go around being what everyone expects you to be, living your life through other people’s rules, and be happy and have inner peace