Archive for July 22, 2018

As Sad As It Sounds   Leave a comment

Once upon a time I was deeply and irrevocably in love with a man who made me feel like a queen.

I felt cherished and adored and so loved

Unfortunately it didn’t last and he broke my heart

The common sense part of me knows we had a good run and a fantastic relationship and it just ran it’s course

I may not be the smartest woman in the world but I do feel like I have a pretty good head on my shoulders

I survived and think I am a better person for the relationship

He is in the past and that is where he will stay

However, once in a blue moon, about two or three times a year I see him

And I won’t lie, it breaks my heart

I loved him very much and honestly I imagine I always will

Well I saw him yesterday, and as always it is painful

I know it is pathetic and sad of me to still mourn him, but I do mourn him for a few days after I see him

He ended our relationship, and maybe if I had ended it, I may not feel so alone and lonely every time I see him and a few days after

It is all so pathetic of me….

I wish I could change how I feel.   I have prayed and prayed over it

I have a good life with a beautiful family and a few friends……so I know I can continue on and live a good life without him, because I do it year after year.

Why then does my heart break all over again when I see him?


Posted July 22, 2018 by Marge in heartfelt, ramblings