haircut/Emily   Leave a comment

so after several months on debating about it, I went and got my hair cut.
It is quite a bit shorter and looks so much healthier I wonder why I hesitate like I do?
Silly me

I also got to spend most of an hour with my youngest child.
Always a good time to just listen to her and share laughing with her.
She is and always will be my angel.
I love her dearly.
I do think I treasure her more because her sister refuses to have anything to do with me.
So it makes Emily that much more precious.
I love Paula dearly, please don’t think I don’t
I would love nothing more than to take her in my arms and hold her tightly and tell her how very much I love her.
but she doesn’t want to have anything to do with me, so therefore I have nothing to do with her.

And Emily benefits from that estrangement.

Life can be complicated and I know for Paula’s sake I give her what she wants.
but it is painful
I love her dearly and pray for her every single day of my life.

Posted June 26, 2011 by Marge in family, God, my loves, ramblings

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