My Muddled Thoughts Today~

Today is my 12th day off

I work the next two days both twelve hour days.

One part of me dreads it.

The other part is looking forward to it.

Why you may wonder?
Well as much as I love my grandchildren and I do I love them more than I love my own life…….I miss the interaction of being with adults.

I miss just doing something other than revolving my day around my grandchildren.

And to be honest, the older two, Aaron who is 8 and Bailey who is 5, they both back talk to me and I detest that.

I keep telling them to stop, but I won’t spank them and or slap them.

It is not my place.

I did cuss at Aaron earlier because I had to tell him something three times before I cussed and he did as I said.

I am not proud of that, but it shouldn’t take me three times to tell him anything.

And Bailey loves to tell me no.
Which pisses me off.
I tell her over and over that I will not except her back talking to me.

She has been put in the corner several times and or made to lay down and take a nap.

She is always always so much happier and nicer after a nap.

Still if I could choose I would choose to not work at all.

Unfortunately that isn’t realistic now.

Maybe in a few years.

Right now I need money to pay bills.

I got paid today and after paying bills I have three dollars left.

It is depressing to me.

So I am going to have to tell my boss to put me on a few more days a week so I can make more money.

Sigh.

Now I have a three day break from my grandchildren because I work the next two days and then my son in law doesn’t work on Monday due to Veterans day being on Sunday.

My husband is off that day as well.

We may go to a movie or two.

There are several I would like to see.

I will miss my darling Ava though.

My three month old grand daughter.

She and I have bonded and I will miss not holding her precious little body to my chest and have her look at me with her beautiful blue eyes.

I will miss Aaron and Bailey too but not their back talking…..

So here I will be working twenty four out of the next forty nine hours.

Hope it goes well.

Happy Weekend!

 

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