When I look into your eyes I still get weak
And when I’m this close to you I just can’t speak
You are all I want and all I need and it’s so damn hard to believe, that’s you without me~
This is a few lines from a song that is stuck in my head.
It has and always will be near and dear to my heart as I loved a man who didn’t love me enough to want to spend the rest of his life with me.
I don’t see him often.
Last year I saw him three times.
I haven’t seen him this year yet.
We don’t talk because when we did he always implied he was up for an affair, and I am trying very hard to be better than that.
It will always be a struggle where he is concerned.
I loved him very much and always will.
I KNOW I have a better man in my husband.
I do know that.
But it doesn’t change and will never change how I feel about the other one.
Yep, that’s you without me~