I just want to say fuck it all.

I am so tired of this knee giving me fits.

It felt great this morning.

Really good.

And then I get to work and spend three hours on it and now I am in horrific pain again and can hardly walk.

Ugh.

I am so sick of it all.

 

Yes it could be worse, I could have cancer or someone I love have cancer or I could be dealing with someone dying.

But when a person can’t even walk, the simple act of just walking causes me so much pain.

It is totally ridiculous

Ugh.

I so need a new job.

And while I say that every few months, it is more true now then it has been in a long damn time.