As I grow older I learn what agrees with me and what doesn’t as far as eating goes.
I have been dealing with stomach issues all day.
Ugh.
Hate it.
But it is what it is and at this date in my life, I should now better.
I am 55, and after these last two weeks I feel like I have aged ten years.
No one should have to watch someone they love die, and yet I wouldn’t have been anywhere else.
Still it takes a toll on me, it sort of haunts me.
I wake up in the middle of the night thinking of her
I still find it hard to imagine she is gone even two weeks later.
I told my sister I want to rewind it all.
And I do.
I wish I could.
Unfortunately I can’t and so I just have to learn from this and do better with the remaining family I have.
God willing we will not lose another family member for a long while.
I miss you Cyndi, more and more every day.
