Archive for September 30, 2016

Saying Goodbye~   Leave a comment

My sister Cyndi died tonight.

At 8:13 pm.

I was alone with her and it happened so incredibly fast.

One minute she is breathing heavily and the next she is breathing shallow and going over a minute before taking another shallow breath.

That lasted 3 minutes and then she was gone.

I still can’t believe it.

All week long I kept telling her “Cyndi, you can go if you need to go.  We understand and love you and you can go”

But as she was taking her last few breathes I was bawling and begging her to breathe.

I was with my mother 24 years ago when she died, and losing Cyndi tonight was just as painful as losing mom all those years ago.

And in the last ten minutes of her life Cyndi kept moaning “Mooooooooooooooooooooooom”
It was heart breaking.

There is a huge hole in our family with Cyndi’s passing.

I just can’t imagine life without her.



Posted September 30, 2016 by Marge in family, heartfelt, my loves, ramblings

Cyndi~   Leave a comment


This was taken five or six years ago with my niece Jackie and a different niece’s daughter



This was taken this past June.

Carolyn, Kathy, me and Cyndi.


I tried cropping the pictures so I could just have them of her but unfortunately I can’t figure out how to do it without it being unprintable when I am done.



Posted September 30, 2016 by Marge in family, ramblings

Starting today~   Leave a comment


I know a few people, one in particular,  who live in the past.

Who can’t get themselves of the “Victim” mode.

Who want to whine continuously about life gone wrong and how it is someone else’s fault but their own.

It gets old.

But I listen and I try and be supportive, but people, wake up!
Start taking responsibility for your own mistakes and short comings!

Let the past stay in the past!

Posted September 30, 2016 by Marge in ramblings