Archive for May 29, 2014

Mrs. Lazy   Leave a comment

Yes that is me, Mrs. Lazy
I have no ambition to do anything
Things seem like such a struggle
Everything does
Work, home, sometimes even my grandchildren, which makes me sad to even think that about them.
Maybe I’m depressed?
I don’t know
I wish things were simplier,I wish there were no damn bugs so I could go outside without caking myself in bug spray
I wish I had a husband who was more passionate about life, because I’m starting to give in and just accept this passionless way of life and that depresses me too
I wish I could retire and just enjoy life
I use to think I would be bored if I didn’t work, but now I’m thinking it would be wonderful to not work at all
I wish my children all had deep love and commitments from their spouses, but I fear not one of them do

I know I need to broaden my horizons
Take risks, find new mountains to climb….

My sister is moving to Florida here in about a month and I envy her this new adventure
I know she is scared and nervous of the unknown, but I have complete faith in her and know she will blossom there

As I’ve said numerous times before, I am a very blessed woman
I know this, but it is the day to day grind that gets me down
Getting myself past this low I am feeling is my priority right now…..

Posted May 29, 2014 by Marge in heartfelt, ramblings