I’m 52 years of age but I live the life of someone twenty if not thirty years older than I am.
I exist by working and coming home and doing nothing but exist in my home till I go to bed to get up and do the same very thing all over again the next day.

I find it appalling and even criminal that I exist and nothing changes.

oh I get to see my grandchildren every now and then, and once in a blue moon something changes that shakes up the other wise non exciting life I live in.

is this the devil playing havoc on my mind again?
making me feel restless and unhappy?

I know I have many things to be thankful for.
I do know this and I am very thankful for all that I have.
Especially my children my grandchildren and my family as a whole.

but every now and then I get restless.

I wonder am I alone in this feeling?
Or do other people feel the same way?

I feel like something has to change, because I can’t let this be all my life is………
existing until I die.
Something has to give………