Lots of people are worse off than me

that’s life

you take the good with the bad,

rise up through it,

live in the midst of it

it’s the bad that let’s you know how good the good really is

don’t let the bad leave you thinking like there aint no good

there is, lots and lots of it too

 

From the book “Chasing Butterflies” by Charles Martin

not sure if it is due to my age, or what, but I have been thinking a lot about death lately.

wondering when I will go and how?
am I on borrowed time or do I have years yet to live?

These thoughts fill my head every now and again.

I find people anger me more of late

not sure why

I would like to shut myself off from the rest of the world.

I would like to runaway and find peace and happiness some place else.

don’t get me wrong, I love my husband, children and grandchildren and siblings

I just get annoyed a lot anymore.

not sure why

sometimes I feel like the end is near and while I don’t want to leave my loved ones here on earth, I would be fine with going to Heaven to be with my Lord as well.