do you think…..one should put themselves above all others……..
do you think…….one should put everyone else’s wants and needs above their own? (their loved ones)
do you think…..the majority does the first sentence or the second one?
I realize it is all what a person can live with.
Their own conscience has to get them through…..
As I told my brother last night as we were talking on face book, there are times I just want to run away……start over some where else where no on expects anything from me.
There are times that need to run is so overwhelming I actually contemplate running……I plan it is my head….I look at the finances to see if I could swing it……
I also told my brother my grandchildren keep me grounded.
They are my glue so to speak.
Without them, I don’t know where I would be.
But I am 99% certain I wouldn’t be here……
I am 49 years old and I still feel unsettled at times
I have to wonder, is there something missing in my makeup, that makes me want to run?
(Stupid question, considering who my parents are)
Life is so short……do I dare to put myself first or should I just let things be as they are?
I don’t really expect any answers…..I’m just thinking out loud…..
The Rearview Mirror And Me~ 
You are not missing anything. You want to run because you are dissatisfied with your life or pieces of it. You feel stuck because of your responsibilities – the same responsibilities that all adults have – work, bills, family, whatever. Most people at our stage of life look back at their 20’s when all of these responsibilities were non-existant. We wish that their lives were like that again. We want the ability to move about as we please, pick up on a whim and go somewhere – anywhere but where they are.
There’s nothing wrong with feeling this way. How you deal with those feelings does matter. You can ignore them and make yourself miserable, or you can see the pieces you want to change and move forward. I know it sounds easier than putting those changes into motion. Go a little at a time – but DO IT!