Archive for March 30, 2010

distance by divorce   Leave a comment

my niece use to be married to the man in the above photo, and this is their daughter their one and only child.
I think they have been divorced four or five years now and she has remarried.
My niece’s daughter Rachel, seen in the above photo, put this picture on Face Book and seeing it reminded me of how much I liked Matt (her father) and how much I miss talking to him.

He was a fun guy, serious and he could be angered easily but he could also be a lot of fun.
He loved to tease.

Seeing this picture of him makes me realize how hard it is at times (Okay I knew this before) to have a distance when it is caused by a divorce.

I think I have seen him once or twice since the divorce, and both times it was with a lot of people around and we didn’t really get a chance to talk.
Whenever I see Rachel, I tell her to tell her dad hello for me.
Weather she does or not, I don’t know.

But the picture of the two of them, brings back fond memories.
Which we all need.


Posted March 30, 2010 by Marge in family, ramblings

counting down   Leave a comment

so I have four more work days until I am off for four days.
I walk around my house and look at all that I have to do and think, four days isn’t going to be long enough.
Especially since the first day we will be moving my son and his family.
The thought of it all makes me very tired, but I am so looking forward to having my house back and getting rid of the animal hair and just existing in my little corner of the world again.

Posted March 30, 2010 by Marge in ramblings

dreams   Leave a comment

I have some strange dreams.
I remember having one last night but for the life of me now I can’t remember what it was about.
Weird huh?

At any rate I think back to my childhood and I remember being asked
“What do you want to be when you grow up?”
and at the time I thought the teaching profession seemed glamorous and that was what I wanted to do.
Not sure when it switched to being a nurse, but at some point it did.

I still think about nursing school.
I am 48 years old and it seems a bit old to think about going back to school, however I do still think of about it.
The main thing keeping me from pursuing this dream is money.
Or lack of.
It would cost me at least $16,000 to go to college, and that doesn’t include trying to work full-time┬áand trying to go to school full-time.
I just don’t think I have it in me.
Something would get missed….something would suffer and I’m sure it would be my relationships with my grandchildren.

I still dream.
I tend to-day┬ádream a lot more than I ever use to….
And I often think….oh if only …….
I suppose that is my mother in me.

However I don’t think it hurts to dream.
I actually think it is healthy in many ways…..

Posted March 30, 2010 by Marge in ramblings