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I agree   Leave a comment

My sister wrote a blog earlier today saying something like “I don’t want to play any more”
I feel the exact same way.
I don’t want to play any more either.
I don’t want to do this.

I mumbled while I was doing breakfast….”I need a different job”

 and a child said “What did you say?”
I just said “I’m talking to myself”
Ugh.

There are times in my life I have felt like this….that I don’t want to play anymore.
But for me it was more “I just don’t want to do this anymore”
but I have to say that while I waddle through the muck….it usually turns out alright if I am patient.

There are days I don’t mind this job and then there are days when I just hate it.
Today I am in between.

I don’t want to be here and IF I could afford it I wouldn’t work here.
But until I get some bills paid….I am stuck……

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So I don’t want to play anymore either and I am betting seventy five percent of Americans feel the same way about their jobs……

Posted September 28, 2009 by Marge in ramblings

Death Ghost …..again   Leave a comment

I have written about the darkness that I call The Death Ghost that has come to my bedroom at night.
To be honest with you it has been months since The Death Ghost has visited me at night when I am just about ready to doze off to sleep

Last night not only did The Death Ghostvisit it was extremely different then any other time.

Usually the darkness looms around the room, and or once or twice it has sat down on the opposite side of the bed that I am on.

I always attribute this as meaning that someone will die soon.
The reason I call it The Death Ghost because it is a mass of darkness and it feels pure evil.

Well last night it loomed right above my face.
Several inches above me but it felt like it was trying to smoother me with its blackness.
No I didn’t panic.
I tried to shut it out, but it was there for a good five minutes or so.
I finally told it, speaking to the empty room
“If you are going to take me, then take me. I am not afraid of you.  If it is my time to die, then I am ready to die.  My Lord will look after me.  I am not afraid of you”

and then it disappeared.

Last night was the first time in all the years The Death Ghost has come to me, that I thought, okay it is going to be me that dies.

Well I am still here today.
And hopefully I am here for at least twenty to thirty more years so I can see my little peanut be born and grow to manhood.

But if I die today, or tomorrow….or whenever….then I am ready to go.
I am right with My Lord and I know I will live in His Kingdom.

do I want to die?
Hell no.
Definitely not.
But if it is my time…..then I am ready.

My  children all know that I love them.
My grandchildre n all know that I adore them
And God willing my children will keep me alive for my grand children to remember for forever.

I hope to never see The Death Ghost again……but I am not afraid….

Posted September 28, 2009 by Marge in family, God, ramblings

another Monday   Leave a comment

I really feel like writing another stinking Monday but I am trying to be positive.
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Hard to do at times but alas….I shall set forth to be happy.
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got all of my Monday morning chores out-of-the-way and now I am just waiting for it to be time to go and do breakfast for these lovely children.

Plan to go watch Keira dance tonight and other than that it is pretty much the same old routine.

Yes I lead a boring life.
My grand children are my life.
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my kids are all grown and no longer need me unless it is to borrow money or baby sit.
So I have to absorb as much grand children time as I can.
They are my wonderful gifts from God.
I so adore them.

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my life is pretty ho hum, living from day-to-day pretty much doing the same thing over and over…..

but with my gifts from God, the ho hum things  can be tolerated
Happy Monday!

Posted September 28, 2009 by Marge in family, God, Kayla, Keira, my loves, ramblings

a great day   Leave a comment

had my girls until eleven thirty and then just had Keira until five thirty.
She had a melt down at one thirty so we lay down for a two hour nap.
I slept too.
Must have needed it after yesterday!
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Kayla got her ears pierced today and her daddy said she barely cried.

prunes finally worked for my little toad and she is a happy girl again.

Hope everyone had a great Sunday.
Couldn’t beat the weather!
🙂

Posted September 27, 2009 by Marge in family, Kayla, Keira, my loves, ramblings

my angels   Leave a comment

let’s just say after the day we had yesterday my two little angels, weren’t angels.
Not that it was their faults.
They both were exhausted from a long long day at the church and then the reception after wards.
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Kayla slept ten hours and Keira is still sleeping.
Going on ten hours right now.
So hopefully she will wake up in the happy mood Kayla woke up in.

Love these two little bundles of joy more than I love my own life, but I wouldn’t want another day like yesterday for anything.
Just way too much over stimulation for both of them.

Happy Sunday!

Posted September 27, 2009 by Marge in Kayla, Keira, my loves, ramblings

a good night   Leave a comment

Had Kayla for the first time by herself last night and it was a good night.
She was asleep by eight and slept sometimes rather fitfully until five fifteen when she had a bottle.
Then we watched cartoons for a while and she was back asleep by six thirty and then she woke up at eight fifty.
So it was a good night over all.

tonight I have both girls and it will be any one’s guess how that will go because Keira is unpredictible when it comes to sleep and how well she does.

and she is always up at the crack of dawn.

So….at least I had one good night, right?

Posted September 26, 2009 by Marge in Kayla, my loves, ramblings

My little loves   Leave a comment

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and in 7 and a half months I will get to add my little peanut to my pictures of my  grand children.
How I love being Nana
🙂

Posted September 25, 2009 by Marge in family, God, my loves, ramblings

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it seems a shame to write something after I put pretty pictures up on the site.
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I can’t get enough of looking at mountains and Utah202162

even the beach can’t outshine the mountains and Utah for me

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the above picture is from Zion National Park as is the one directly below these lines.
A place I probably wouldn’t have seen if not for my eldest child

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then of course we have My Mountain in Washington

My Rainer

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that I just MUST go visit again one day

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or Montana, I will definitely have to see that again some day.

Alaska calls to me too, definitely.

But…..

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Utah……

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is where I ache to be…..

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and plan to return to in seven months.
I CAN’T WAIT!!!!!

Posted September 25, 2009 by Marge in my loves, ramblings

counting down time   Leave a comment

I am counting down the minutes until I can start my weekend.
I have forty minutes to go until I can walk out these doors and head home.
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Love the weekends and Monday rolls around way too early.
Still….I get to spend the weekends with those I love the most so….it makes it extra special and that is why the time flies like it does.

🙂

Posted September 25, 2009 by Marge in family, ramblings

God’s beauty is all around us   Leave a comment

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How can we deny it?
Just look at these beautiful pictures, or my beautiful grand daughters
God’s beauty is all around us.
We just have to open our eyes and look.
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Posted September 25, 2009 by Marge in God, my loves, ramblings